2012 sucked. That's it. There's no other way to say it. Lot's of bad shit happened that I still can't really talk about and haven't completely wrapped my brain around. I think I may well have had a nervous breakdown and just hid it really, really well.
That being said there were bright spots in the last 4 months or so. Beams of light in the tunnel as it were. These lead me to believe that 2013 might head into an upward trajectory. I do kind of think there is some truth to the power of positive thinking. I'm not the type to smile when I'm feeling crappy just to make myself feel better but I do think if you focus on the light stuff the dark is easier to bear.
Therefore I am going to endeavor to do just this, not a resolution so much as I suck at those just an attempt to balance dark with light and remember that plenty of good things happen right alongside the bad ones.
My first project to accomplish this came from a Facebook post I read:
"Start on January 1st with an empty jar. Throughout the year write the good things that happened to you on little pieces of paper. On December 31st, open the jar and read all the amazing things that happened to you that year"
Also I got this for Christmas:
Its actually written by a friend of the BFF. In fact if you see it in the bookstore, go to page 232 and you will find Maribel there. Now I know I'm a recovering goth girl, who basically can't stand people but here's a funny thing, I like individuals. Its the masses I can't stand, so the random acts of kindness thing has always appealed to me. Small things can make a big difference for people. I've decided to attempt to do as many of the suggestions in the book as I can this year. I'm starting in the middle since she doesn't start with January 1st but that kind of makes it more fun.
All in all what I really want is to make 2013 my bitch. I want to regain control of my life as much as I can and choose what makes me happy rather than running all over the place trying to make everyone else happy first. A friend on Facebook likened it to not being able to save the person next to you if you don't have your oxygen mask on (thanks for that Nadia). Therefore my motto for the year is as follows: